Free Will

An interesting question was brought to light after my post regarding the fusion of Lu’s emotions within my own. If I am doing his work and acting as his disciple as a direct effect of the strength of these emotions, how does free will come into play?

It’s an important inquiry, considering how central the issue of free will is to Lu’s ambitions.

Free will is a difficult concept, because it’s rarely as simple as (as the name implies) doing something of one’s own free will. Just because someone else isn’t directly putting your finger on the trigger doesn’t mean they can’t have had an influence on your decision to do so. So how am I able to say that my devotion to Lu and my furtherance of his Work is entirely my own decision, when I am so swayed by the force behind these emotions?

Because they are my emotions, albeit enhanced by my god. No one, not even a god, could have stirred such passions within me that didn’t already exist. All that could be done was coax an ember into a flame.

First I should probably describe how exactly my emotional link to Lu works. I’m hesitant to call it an ‘empathic’ link, because while it does share some characteristics of what other empaths have experienced, I am not an empath in the typical sense. I can’t ‘pick up’ on others’ feelings, I have a hard time understanding or imagining what someone might be going through during a particular emotional event that I myself have never experienced, nor do I feel everything Lu feels 24/7. There’s an area of resonance, so to speak.

For example, I don’t know what it feels like to have a brother become your ‘enemy’. I’m an only child, I’ve never had any sort of sibling relationship, much less a falling-out with a sibling. I can’t even imagine what Lu must have gone through, at war with his own family.

But I do know what it feels like to be wronged. I know the agony of defeat, of having everything important to you ripped away. It is shared sentiments like these that are fused together, my own amplified by Lu’s. It is then difficult for me to be ‘coerced’ into doing his Work, when I would still feel the same way (though perhaps not quite as strongly) in the absence of our link.

I can always refuse to do something he asks of me. I have before. I refused even though it pained me to do so, even though my heart said otherwise. I am not ruled by these emotions, much less denied my free will.

Free will is the ability to choose for ourselves. I have chosen this path, I have chosen this god, and I have chosen the consequences that come along with it, taking both my own feelings and Lu’s into consideration while not letting them be the deciding factors.

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4 thoughts on “Free Will

  1. Hello there, long time no see. 🙂

    Free will can never be something simply explained or experienced – and really, I think it would be a shame if something so staggeringly important WERE simple to explain. The concept of free will and individual decision is incredibly important to my own personal philosophy; whatever gods come into my life, whatever my relationship with them, the idea that I ultimately give or revoke consent is non-negotiable. (I tried slavishly following everything my god told me to do. I call it “growing up in a Baptist household in the South.”)

    I haven’t truly interacted with Lucifer (though you’re inspiring me to take a second look!), but I do know more about Loki. In many ways, I feel that how you describe Luce and his Work resonates with how I and others have understood Loki. There is such a burning emphasis on free will and knowing yourself, keeping up a healthy amount of pride and ego, and never letting your soul be trampled down even if physically you’re forced into submission. Loki has known so much pain and betrayal that even as removed as I am from him, my heart aches in sympathy. He held the other gods accountable for their actions and deeds and for this was punished. All of his children were locked away, or killed – one son turned into a monstrous wolf that devoured another, and that second son’s entrailed used to bind Loki in his cave beneath the earth. No matter what Loki did, he did not deserve /that/, and I think of him as the patron of those who suffer wrongly at the hands of an abusive authority. Those who have had their free will ripped from them, their sense of personal integrity smashed to the ground.

    • I agree wholeheartedly. I think I connect so well with Lokeans because they have the same sort of stigmas attached with their god, and we face similar situations in regards to how the larger pagan community sees our paths. It’s a shame, really, that Lu and Loki don’t really get along (from my experience), because they are awfully similar.

      It was nice to hear from you again. Thanks for your input, and I hope you’re doing well!

  2. Hello there, long time no see. 🙂

    Free will can never be something simply explained or experienced – and really, I think it would be a shame if something so staggeringly important WERE simple to explain. The concept of free will and individual decision is incredibly important to my own personal philosophy; whatever gods come into my life, whatever my relationship with them, the idea that I ultimately give or revoke consent is non-negotiable. (I tried slavishly following everything my god told me to do. I call it “growing up in a Baptist household in the South.”)

    I haven’t truly interacted with Lucifer (though you’re inspiring me to take a second look!), but I do know more about Loki. In many ways, I feel that how you describe Luce and his Work resonates with how I and others have understood Loki.

    (Brief note – I lost the rest of my response past this when the network decided to blip. Guess Loki says hi. :P)

    Loki is about protecting your personal integrity and free will and, most of all, challenging authority that is abusive and manipulative. I will not defend all of Loki’s actions, and to be frank I don’t think he needs me to. The point is, even after everything Loki’s done, his punishment far, FAR outweighs the pain and destruction he caused. He’s the champion of those whose free will has been forcibly taken from them and are suffering under an uncaring status quo. He dared to defy the other gods, to exist in a frightening liminal space between man and woman, god and Jotun, good and evil. And he has had his children taken from him or even killed, his blood-brother imprison him in eternal anguish until Ragnarok, and many other things. I will never understand what it’s like to be bound in the entrails of one of my sons, but I understand having something I care about destroyed by someone who was supposed to be family. I’ll never understand what it’s like to physically be another sex, but I understand when gender identity falls far, far outside the heteronormative binary. I may not understand Loki, but I’d like to think he can understand me.

    tl;dr It amuses me to think of Luce and Loki as bros.

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